Author’s Note – This is another little fiction from a one word prompt over on Instagram. The word was taste. I saw a lot of responses that were either foodie or sexy. And I was tempted. But Ben was feeling chatty. He shared a dream with me. He does that. Let’s me have his nightmares sometimes. So this is what we got instead. The Taste of Fear. ~ J
The blackness was total.
It went past mere idea or circumstance.
It was physical.
First it was an enemy. It left him flailing, yelling, then finally panting and sweating.
After a while when it was all there was, he tired of that.
Then the dark around him, so smooth, so complete, so constant, was almost a friend. But the kind you knew would stab you in the back eventually. You just couldn’t prove it.
He didn’t remember it, but they must have grabbed him at that last stop.
Why leave him like this? If he was caught, why not just get it over with?
Over probably wasn’t on the docket. Not any time soon. But even torture might be preferable to this unending, muffling, blanket of dark silence.
Okay, maybe not.
But the nothingness was a torture of its own.
He wasn’t restrained or hurt. He felt around carefully. Nothing near him but the ground beneath him. So smooth, he wasn’t sure what it might be. Not earth, not pavement. It was strange but it was solid. Probably.
Stay calm. You have nothing to gain by losing your shit right now.
He rose carefully. One hand above him in case there was a low ceiling, the other protectively in front of him, for no particular reason other than reflex. Once he was upright, he reached out to explore, slowly at first. It seemed there was truly nothing around him.
Not even an echo. His voice sounded like something meant to be experienced in three dimensions squashed onto a piece of paper.
He swallowed hard.
This is oblivion.
They found you.
And instead of revenge or torment, they put an end to you.
That’s why I don’t remember anything.
The final death.
But it’s even worse than you thought.
Because I’m still here.
In the dark.
An insidious, familiar, unwelcome, long despised voice whispered in his ear, “I can taste your fear.”
Panic came then.
Ben bolted upright in bed, half falling out of it before Mal caught his arm. “Hey, hey, it’s okay,” she soothed in familiar tones, gathering him close. “You’re okay. Just another dream.”
Ben lay back down next to her for a while, letting his breathing return to normal, appreciating that she didn’t ask about his nightmares.
When faint grey light peeked in the curtains, he leaned in and kissed her cheek. She was almost back asleep. “I’m going for a run.”
“‘Kay,” she murmured.
Ben got a couple of miles in before he had to stop, leaning against a tree, gasping.
Almost like it was real, he heard the voice in his ear again.
“You’ll never be able to stop running.”
Ben gasped and looked around. There was no one there.
Still, the whisper came again.
“And I can still taste your fear.”